This song makes my life right now. I have so much going on… should probably post just to get some stuff off my chest and onto the page but my little fingers aren’t cooperating with my little brain. Instead, listen to this song that makes me really really happy.
… September 5, 2008
So, I’m sad. I feel like my friends are moving on without me, like life is moving on without me. My best friend goes to school upstate. I was supposed to go there too but… for reasons too complicated to blog about, I didn’t. So this year, my other closest friend transfers to the school where my best friend is and now I feel completely out of the loop. I was friends with both of them before they were really close with each other, but now they seem inseperable. I mean, they have all these new jokes that I’m not in on, and they can basically see each other all the time.. its just…I’m jealous. I’m really jealous because I don’t feel like I have that connection with anyone here. All my closest friends are gone. And tonight my two closest friends are going to a strip club, something that I wanted to do with them for the longest time and I don’t know if I’m being selfish or what but I feel like it’s not fair. I want them to have a good time deep down in my heart but right now I’m just mad that they’re doing it without me. And I just don’t know who to talk to about any of this.
